Good life..

Sorry for the lack of updates but when life is good its very good. I have written so much in poetic sometimes dark prose over the years I find it hard to write about a normal life that i now have. I find myself in the early stages of a life finally found. Oh how I longed for it, but sometimes when finding the new its hard not to look back at the old and wonder where you came from, who you were then and how you came to be the person you are now. There is comfort in the familiar, looking back I know every road I chose and can recount each and every step. Now its a new world awaiting discovery and little by little I take a step, seeking to be sure footed and solid. Somehow it seems the more things change the more they stay the same. The difference being this time I have that special one in my life to offer encouragement in times of struggle and advice in moments of indecision. Still deep inside me there is a wayfarer seeking whats around the next curve, over the next hill. But now there is a heart that beats with equal passion and curiosity...and it is now by my side.

..good life.

...never a doubt.

Sometimes what you are searching for is watching you, waiting for that moment of discovery and sadly we waste precious time as we are looking for the wrong thing. There will always be someone who promises you love and happiness forever but in the end they have not the fortitude to deliver. As it was for you it is for them, they know not what they seek as well. Stunned, captivated defying my description of what I wanted and sudden realization that God knew and when I trusted and let go I was rewarded with something, someone I waited for for so long. Yes words from the wise ring true and loudly.. "Let go and let God".

...and now.

One can never fully understand why the heart and mind work as they do. Sometimes working together, sometimes working against each other. But one fully understands the moment that all stands still and you are never quite the same afterwards. Wishing I could have met this angel years ago but knowing I was nowhere near ready for such a find. Lessons still needed to be learned and my eyes and heart would learn a final lesson. So blessed am I.

Beginnings...

Three years ago I shot the first pic....Three years later someone did say hello....Now a wonderful life begins.

sometimes...

.....sometimes words aren't enough to convey what the heart wants to say so badly. To finally have what I have searched for for many years....Learning what love really is all about.

...step by step.

Standing , looking for the smile as it walks though the door. Eyes meeting and then the feeling of falling again. No matter where I go, it feels like home as she is by my side now and that's all that matters..

...amazed.

Sitting here tonight coffee in hand thinking about the last four years. Seeing my life, the paths that could have been taken and the outcomes, some known some never to be known. Looking at my new wedding band on my finger, remembering every step of how I got here. How I still remained stunned at how I didn't see what was before me all this time. So much time wasted, what seemed like "forever" was nothing more than a game, but then again I wasn't ready to receive my gift. the mind and heart had to clear before they could see. Then in a moment I was given the sight to see what was before me. Unworthy of such a blessing....

...amazed.